Summer School in Norway

     I'm currently considering applying to Universitetet i Agder in Norway for its summer program on European Union Integration.  I have been accepted to Josef Korbel School of International studies for a Masters program and it's most likely that I will be spending the next to years in Denver.  I have known the program in Norway for a while and I was always disappointed that I don't have a BA already, so that I can apply.  I sent an email to the program director the other day and got a very positive and encouraging reply.  Maybe it will be a great experience for a summer study/vacation. Maybe it will also look good on my résumé.  I hope I am making the right decision because I can't afford any more missteps at this stage of my life.  Living in the clouds certainly suits any Pisces who loves o escape the unsatisfying reality.  But I can't dream about water in baking heat.  

First Post In Four Years

      This is my firs blog post in four years.  Well, it's been four years since I moved to Pittsburgh and now it's getting closer and closer for me to move away.  I wonder why it took me four years to come up with a single blog post.  The better question is, what have I been doing in the past four years.  I can simply say that I was doing my best to get through college.  Or was I? 
     I have learned things, things that are not taught in class. Becoming good at debating politics doesn't really help me find out who I am.  I certainly haven't got any outstanding accomplishment that I can proudly present to a stranger who barely has timely to criticize. But I have been true to my feelings and the experimental direction I took.  I wanted to find out what I really want in my life and what would make me not regret the choices I made and the time I spent decades later.  I want to find out what makes me me.  I still haven't gotten all the answers yet.  Maybe it will come to me when I wake up tomorrow morning.  Maybe it will never occur to me. 
     I have decided that being depressed is rather good for me sometimes, when I feel that I can't make it through the day and I want to run away.  Other times I try desperately to pull myself together.  Too much seems to be happening simultaneously and it overwhelms me.  No matter what it is, I wish I can sing through the day and hope that I will be falling asleep listening to a sweet lullaby just for me.